Can't sleep... clowns will get me
Aug. 15th, 2006 10:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mighty_aphroditeI don't think I can fall asleep tonight. I haven't slept alone since the night before our wedding. And that was at my parents' house, not our empty and packing-cluttered apartment. Oh, I slept on the futon a few times when pissy with the hubby, but I didn't sleep well.
Maybe if I try the futon... It's weird sleeping in OUR bed alone, but maybe if I increase the foreign-ness of the sleeping location it will decrease the eeriness of the lonely sleeping. Perhaps I'll try it. And thank whatever gods there may be for my very old and cuddly teddy bear. Maybe if I construct a surrogate hubby out of pillows and blankets and put our wall clock in the middle of it.... it works for puppies.
I am sad and pitiful. I have spent half the day talking to the bird and the other half crying like a small child.
Maybe if I try the futon... It's weird sleeping in OUR bed alone, but maybe if I increase the foreign-ness of the sleeping location it will decrease the eeriness of the lonely sleeping. Perhaps I'll try it. And thank whatever gods there may be for my very old and cuddly teddy bear. Maybe if I construct a surrogate hubby out of pillows and blankets and put our wall clock in the middle of it.... it works for puppies.
I am sad and pitiful. I have spent half the day talking to the bird and the other half crying like a small child.
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Date: 2006-08-16 09:51 am (UTC)I don't believe this will be consolation, but I cried every single day that Matt was away in Europe. (Of course, I cried after he got home too because he was a totally different person... but that is beside the point.) You love and miss your hubby. It's totally normal.
Get out of the house! Go to Friday night music. Hell, call Luke and go geocaching with him and Jay (his roomate and best-guy-friend). Being around other people will dull the missingpain enough to sleep well (or okayish at least).