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Life spinning violently out of control
Nov. 12th, 2007 08:41 pmSo...
I haven't posted for a log while and for that I apologize. But my life has gotten... insane. My mother-in-law's cancer is back and has metastatized all over her body (liver, kidneys, lungs, ribs, vertebrae and remaining breast). And on top of it she has pneumonia and a collapsed lung. I have been raising her 12-year old son and her poodle mutt for three months. The hubby and I have been running back and forth between here and SE Iowa on weekends for the past month. We've both missed school/work, and I am falling very much behind in class.
We've been wanting to send her to Reno for treatment again, but now she can't fly because at this point she risks mid-air death, even if she has oxygen. So... the hubby is taking off work (maybe for as much as 2 months) to drive her cross-country (with his sister and cousin) in a rented van (because she can't breathe sitting up) all the way from Iowa to Reno and hoping against hope that she makes it there alive. At this point every day is a miracle. So... I'm living MY life day-to-day because I have no idea if somehting may happen tomorrow that will totally change everything.
I could end up with custody of three teenagers and an elderly grandmother. I may have to drop out. I may have to move back to Iowa and try to get a shitty job in Burlington. I may have to pick up a part-time job here to make ends meet for two months. Anything could happen. All I know is that I'm exhausted, I'm scared, I'm all alone up here in Minneapolis and I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. So... yeah. Hence the lack of posts.
I haven't posted for a log while and for that I apologize. But my life has gotten... insane. My mother-in-law's cancer is back and has metastatized all over her body (liver, kidneys, lungs, ribs, vertebrae and remaining breast). And on top of it she has pneumonia and a collapsed lung. I have been raising her 12-year old son and her poodle mutt for three months. The hubby and I have been running back and forth between here and SE Iowa on weekends for the past month. We've both missed school/work, and I am falling very much behind in class.
We've been wanting to send her to Reno for treatment again, but now she can't fly because at this point she risks mid-air death, even if she has oxygen. So... the hubby is taking off work (maybe for as much as 2 months) to drive her cross-country (with his sister and cousin) in a rented van (because she can't breathe sitting up) all the way from Iowa to Reno and hoping against hope that she makes it there alive. At this point every day is a miracle. So... I'm living MY life day-to-day because I have no idea if somehting may happen tomorrow that will totally change everything.
I could end up with custody of three teenagers and an elderly grandmother. I may have to drop out. I may have to move back to Iowa and try to get a shitty job in Burlington. I may have to pick up a part-time job here to make ends meet for two months. Anything could happen. All I know is that I'm exhausted, I'm scared, I'm all alone up here in Minneapolis and I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. So... yeah. Hence the lack of posts.